So I leave in 11 days and I haven't even finished making my 'to do' list.  Whenever I start working on getting ready to go I start thinking about leaving.  And while I know that I doing this in my own strength it is still hard to be leaving.  So much of my heart is here, but my heart is also being lead somewhere else where there is a great work being done.

At the training I went to, we looked at building a "RAFT" before leaving to help make a positive transition.  This is an acronym for reconciliation, affirmation, farewells, and think destination.  So far I pretty much stink at every step.  I've tried to reconcile some relationships and so far they seem to be worse.  Farewells are just hard, and i'm thinking to much about farewells to be able to think destination. 

All I can do is rest in the fact that someone greater than I knows exactly where I am going, how I am going to get all of my stuff there, who I will meet there, etc.  He is also in charge of the relationships I am leaving here.

I love you all.

so much to do, so little time... I got a laptop computer today, so I've spent most of my day setting it up and spending time playing with my new toy, rather than doing other things I need to get done.  But I did get more forms and stuff sent. 

I spent last night at a cold and rainy swim meet trying to keep up with when all 4 of my kids were swimming.  It was very chaotic.  They finally canceled the meet when it finally thundered about 1/2 way through. 

I had a moment of "I can't do this, it's scary" today when I was working on stuff for next school year.  I know this is what i'm supposed to be doing, but it is kind of overwhelming.